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[25 May 2006|11:33pm]
Okay, so this is kind of sad...

I'm switching my journals, because I kind of need a fresh start. So here's the link for my new one...


So yeah, friend me over there.
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[17 May 2006|12:07pm]
You scored 34 artsy!
You always seem to blend into the background. Your friends love you, but you seem to be a great observer. You are always there to help your friends when they need you, but maybe sometimes you feel like you don't have what you know they need. You love art, any of it, and you are concerned with selling out. Don't feel like you have to compromise your beliefs in order to make a little dough, but don't close off opporutunities before you even explore them.

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:
free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 99% on artsy
Link: The Which Rent Character Are You Test written by tonyn on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test
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[17 May 2006|11:39am]
Official RENThead
You scored 98% RENThead!
WOW! Thats Impressive!!
You nailed most/if not all of the questions!! (Maybe you looked some of those little ones up!) Anyway, at least you know where to look!
I've gotta say, you are a RENTHEAD, all the way!
(so support the musical, and go see RENT the movie, opening everywhere November 23)

And remember: "No day but today . . ."

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:
free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 99% on renthead
Link: The Ultimate RENT Test written by jillflash1289 on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test
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[15 May 2006|08:02pm]
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[14 May 2006|10:52pm]
Put 15 songs from your library on shuffle and write who they make you think of.

1. Betterman by Pearl Jam-This song reminds me of Aaron. "Waiting, watching the clock it's four o'clock, it's got to stop. Tell him, take no more, she practices her speech as he opens the door. She rolls over, pretends to sleep as he looks her over. She lies and says she's in love with him..."

2. Marching Bands of Manhattan by Death Cab for Cutie-Emily and drives out to Corning.

3. Here's To The Night by Eve 6-My 8th Grade class, because this was our graduation song.

4. Please Stay by Warren Zevon-Matthew, because I listened to it a lot on the way to the hospital when he was born.

5. One Day More from Les Mis-My brother, because he took me to see Les Mis in Boston junior year. It was part of the Broadway in Boston series, and I had always loved musical theater, but had never seen much more than regional theater stuff, so it was awesome.

6. I'm Moving On by Rascal Flatts-this song doesn't really make me think of anyone, except myself, because it's kind of what I'm going through right now. "I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons. Finally content with a past I regret. I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness. For once, I'm at peace with myself. I've been burdened with blame and trapped in the past for too long, and I'm moving on...I'm moving on, at last I can see, life has been patiently waiting for me, and I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone." Thank god for that.

7. Babylon by David Gray. Aaron again, and what I went through after our breakup. "Well looking back through time you know it's clear that I've been blind, I've been a fool, to open up my heart to all that jealousy, that bitterness, that ridicule."

8. One step Up-Kenny Chesney. Holy shit, this is Aaron night. "It's the same thing night on night, who's wrong and baby who's right, another fight that I slammed the door on, another battle in our dirty little war."

9. What Hurts the Most-Rascal Flatts. Certain people from senior year. "What hurts the most was being so close and having so much to say, and watching you walk away, and never knowing what could have been."

10. The Only Living Boy in New York by Simon and Garfunkel-Kayleigh, because she introduced me to it, and now it's one of my favorite songs. "I can gather all the news I need on the weather report. Hey, I've got nothing to do today but smile"

11. Ride With Me-Nelly. Ryan and Jeff love this song.

12. Without You from Rent (the movie, not the OBC). This reminds me of my grandmother. "The world revives, colors renew, but I know blue, only blue, lonely blue, within me blue, without you...life goes on, but I'm gone, cuz I die without you." Clearly one of the best songs of loss there is, because most songs talk about how the world stopped and stuff like that because they lost someone they love, but that's really not how it is, because the world does go on, and when you lose someone you love, nothing is affected except you and the other people who knew them. It's just so real

13. Reelin' in the Years by Steely Dan. Hehe, Kari. "did you have enough to eat? would you like some more of mine?" Best lyrics interpretation ever.

14. La Vie Boheme B from Rent. Haha, I'll never forget me and Kays trying to learn the words to this. To Dance! la la la la la masochism la la la eating disorders! Film! la la la la la la la la la hollywood and sleaze! blah blah blah blah to faggots, lezzies, dykes, crossdressers too..but now we've mastered it.

15. Blue Sky by the Allman Brothers. Matthew! "You're my blue sky, you're my sunny day"
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I love my roomie [11 May 2006|05:38pm]
watwouldjesusdo6: fucking pot. don't fuck with the kettle
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Ugh. Emo. Damn. [11 May 2006|01:04am]
I really haven't been that happy lately. I feel like I put a lot more effort into my friendships than I get out of them. Honestly, I feel like most of my friends wouldn't care if I wasn't in their lives anymore. Like, I always intiate conversation with all of my high school friends. And my family doesn't really put effort into staying in touch with me, and I only see my roommate when she comes back to the room to pass out. And I try really really hard to make everyone happy and listen to people and all that stuff, but as soon as something goes wrong with me no one really gives a fuck. I'm ready to go home and start over again. There's been too many complications this year, and I don't even know why I'm here in the first place.
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[09 May 2006|11:42am]

Your Political Profile

Overall: 80% Conservative, 20% Liberal

Social Issues: 75% Conservative, 25% Liberal

Personal Responsibility: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal

Fiscal Issues: 100% Conservative, 0% Liberal

Ethics: 75% Conservative, 25% Liberal

Defense and Crime: 100% Conservative, 0% Liberal

You are a

Social Liberal
(73% permissive)

and an...

Economic Conservative
(65% permissive)

You are best described as a:


Link: The Politics Test on Ok Cupid
Also: The OkCupid Dating Persona Test
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[08 May 2006|11:33am]
Start spreading the news, I’m leaving today
I want to be a part of it - new york, new york
These vagabond shoes, are longing to stray
Right through the very heart of it - new york, new york

I wanna wake up in a city, that doesn’t sleep
And find I’m king of the hill - top of the heap

These little town blues, are melting away
I’ll make a brand new start of it - in old new york
If I can make it there, I’ll make it anywhere
It’s up to you - new york, new york

New york, new york
I want to wake up in a city, that never sleeps
And find I’m a number one top of the list, king of the hill
A number one

These little town blues, are melting away
I’m gonna make a brand new start of it - in old new york
And if I can make it there, I’m gonna make it anywhere

It up to you - new york new york
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[05 May 2006|11:43am]
I'm happy.
I've been happy since the end of January.
I think that's a record.
I like it.
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[03 May 2006|11:59am]

You Are a "Don't Tread On Me" Libertarian

You distrust the government, are fiercely independent, and don't belong in either party.

Religion and politics should never mix, in your opinion... and you feel opressed by both.

You don't want the government to cramp your self made style. Or anyone else's for that matter.

You're proud to say that you're pro-choice on absolutely everything!

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I love being an insomniac [02 May 2006|12:28am]
1)Where was your last kiss?
-- In a dorm room...

2) What color boxers/underwear are you wearing now?
-- Very light brown

3) What are you listening to right now?
-- The sound of Melanie's fan

4) Whats your favorite number?:
-- I don't really have one

5) What was the last thing you ate?:
-- Pasta purses?

6) When was the last time you smiled?
-- right...NOW!

7) How is the weather right now?:
-- fucking gorgeous

8) Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
-- Grandpa

9) What is your worst habit?
-- I procrastinate

10) Do you drink?
-- Occasionally, not too much

11) Do you smoke?
-- Nope

12) When was the last time, if ever, you blacked out?
-- Never

13.) Do you have a Girlfriend/Boyfriend?
-- No, *sigh*...oh well, it will happen when the time is right, and being single for this long has definitely been a good thing in terms of my mental state after Aaron

14) Your Hair color?
-- Some days it's red, some days it's brown...

15) Eye Color?:
-- Blue

16) Do you wear contacts?
-- I do not

17) Favorite Holiday?:
-- Christmas, Thanksgiving, Fourth of July, my birthday

18) Favorite Month(s)?:
-- May through September

19) Have you ever cried for no reason?:
-- Yes

20) What was the last movie you watched?:
-- "Rent"

21) Favorite Day of the Year?:
-- August 9th, hehe. Yay presents.

22) Are you too shy to ask someone out?:
-- Yes, yes I am.

23) Last advice you received?
-- I don't know, I probably didn't listen to it though

24) What was the highlight of your weekend?:
-- I thoroughly enjoyed telling Emily my dirty little secret, I enjoyed certain conversations, and I enjoyed my time with Kayleigh on Sunday afternoon, and also my text message from Chelsea.

25) Chocolate or Vanilla?:
-- Both!

26) What is the last text message you received?:
-- Something like "I was just thinking about you. We should get together when you're home" from Chelsea

27) What did the last text message you sent say?:
-- "Definitely. I miss you. Call me sometime." something like that.

28) Who was the last person to call you?
-- My sistah

29) What was the last sports game you watched?:
-- Oh god, it's been awhile. I don't have the attention span anymore.

30) When was the last time you slept in someone else's bed?
-- Saturday when I feel asleep with Kayleigh

31) Favorite basketball team?
-- Basketball? psh.

32) Favorite football Team?
-- The Patriots

33) What were you doing before this?:
-- Spending quality time with Emily

34) Any pets?:
-- Molly et Raider

35) Favorite Drink?
-- Sprite and Lemonade, lol.

36) Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?
-- Butter and salted?

37) Dogs or cats?:
-- Dogs

38) Favorite flower?
-- Flowery ones? I dunno. I'm indecisive.

39) When was the last time you got in trouble?
-- I have no clue, actually. I guess January 28th.

40) What did you do?
-- um, I disobeyed the speed limit.

41) Have you ever loved someone?
-- Oh my god, yes.

42) Who would you like to see right now?
-- My friends from home, my family, and of course, Matthew :)

43) Are you still friends with people from kindergarten?
-- Not really

44) Have you ever fired a gun?
-- No

45) Do you like to travel by plane?
-- Yes! I love taking off, it's such a thrill.

46) What websites do you go to frequently?
-- Livejournal, myspace, facebook, ec webmail

47). If you could be with anybody right now who would it be?
-- Oh wow...sexy? Or Anthony Rapp mayhaps? Or all of my friends? Or perhaps my siblings? Or maybe my grandmother or my mom?

48) How many pillows do you sleep with?
-- Three, I'm a cuddly person.

49) Are you missing someone?
-- YES!

50) How was your day?
-- Amazing

1. hometown: Enfield
2. height:5'5"
3. Hair color: reddish brown
4. Hair length: Past my shoulder bones
5. Hair style: Straight and layered
6. Eye color: Blue
7. Shoe size: between 9 and 10
8. mood: Happy
9. sexuality: Straight
10. status: Single


1. Have you ever been in love: Yes
2. Do you believe in love?: Yes, above all things I believe in love, except when it fucks you in the ass
3. Why did your last relationship fail? bad timing, distance, all that shit
4. Have you ever been heartbroken?: Oh my god yes
5. Have you ever broken someones heart?: I had to, for my own good, and it killed me, even though he was an ass
6. Have you ever fallen for your best friend?: Nope
7. Are you planning on getting married?: I think so
8. Are you afraid of commitment?: Nope, I have no problem being committed.


1. love or lust?: Love
wheres 2?
3. night or day?: Depends on the night/day
4. hook-ups or relationship?: Relationships, hooking up makes me feel used, although sometimes I don't mind it
5. tv or internet?: Internet.
6. Pepsi or coke?: Coke
7. wild night out or romantic night in?: Both
8. Saturday or Sunday?: Saturday
9. Colored or black and white picture?: Depends on the picture
10. Phone or in person?: Person


1. Have you ever been caught sneaking out?: No
2. Have you ever skinny dipped?: Yes
3. Have you ever done something you regret?: No regrets
4. Have you ever bungee jumped? Nope, but I would LOVE to (even though I'm afraid of heights)
5. Have you ever been on a house boat?: Yes
6. Have you ever finished an entire jaw breaker?: No
7. Have you ever wanted someone so badly it hurt?: Yes
8. Have you ever stayed up all night til the sun came up? Oh my god yes
9. Have you ever been caught by your parents with a hickey? No, but I have been caught by my sister
10. Have you ever been caught by your parents doing anything more than making out?: Kinda sorta


1. Are you missing someone right now?: Yes
2. Are you in love with anyone?: No, not right now
3. Are you happy?: Yes, finally.
4. Are you talking to anyone right now? Nope
5. Are you bored? Kinda, i should really go to bed though
6. Are you German?: Nope
8. Are you Italian?: Nope
9. Are your parents still married?: No, they would be if Mom didn't die though
10. Do you like someone right now?: I think I do!
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[02 May 2006|12:27am]
So the past few days have been amazing. After incessant amounts of community service, I think we are almost done! Finally. I never thought the day would come. I love my friends, I love my classes this term, I love warm weather, I love Cordelia and my new sunglasses, I love sunshine, I love my bed, I love late night walks with Emily, I love rolling down the hill and being a tree-hugger, I love listening to the Rent soundtrack with Kayleigh, I love the fact that May Days are next weekend and Kays and I are headed to New Hampshire the week after, I love having crushes on people, I love everything.

I know, this is a far cry from all those "I hate my life" emo entries. Thank god I'm not that girl anymore.
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[30 Apr 2006|08:55pm]
HeatherJ8987: holy shit
saratillo: it has holes in it?
HeatherJ8987: yes it does
saratillo: whoa dude
saratillo: thats amazing
HeatherJ8987: isn't it?
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[30 Apr 2006|03:44am]
Holy shit, I just discovered the beauty of "Wicked."

Crap, this broadway thing is going to cost me a lot of money.
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[29 Apr 2006|12:08am]
I hate drunk people.
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That's poetic, That's pathetic... [28 Apr 2006|11:21am]
you know youre a Renthead when...Collapse )
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I love surveys [26 Apr 2006|08:01pm]
In 2006, I've already...

[x] made a new friend.
[x] liked someone
[] fallen in love
[] fallen out of love
[] done something I swore never to do
[x] lied
[x] laughed until I cried
[] stole Chapstick
[] went behind my parents back
[] disappointed someone close
[x] hidden a secret
[] pretended to be happy...I actually have been happy in 2006
[] got arrested
[] kissed in the rain
[] slept under the stars
[] gotten in a fight
[] kept my new years resolution
[x] forgot my new years resolution
[x] met someone who changed my life
[x] met one of my idols...oh, Anthony, how I love you...
[x] changed my outlook on life...oh my god, yes
[x] sat home all day doing nothing
[] pretended to be sick
[x] left the state
[] almost died
[] lost someone close to me
[x] gotten closer to someone
[] streaked
[x] cried over someone
[] broken up with a gf or bf
[] given up something important to me
[] talked on the phone all night
[x] learned something new about myself
[x] tried something I normally wouldn't try
[x] found out who my true friends were
[x] made a total fool of myself
[x] met great people
[x] gotten drunk
[] made out with a stranger
[] regret something...No regrets!
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[22 Apr 2006|12:35am]
Oh, and the best part of this podcast?

*talking about Daphne Rubin-Vega's baby*
Interviewer: So are you Uncle Mark?
Anthony Rapp: Um...
Interviewer: I mean Uncle Anthony.

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[22 Apr 2006|12:31am]
So the thing is, I'm listening to Anthony Rapp's podcast interview right now, and I really freaking love him.
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